Summer Shorts + Here’s Where I’ve Been…

First things first, this is probably going to be my go-to spring/summer outfit. These summer shorts are so perfect and also come in a solid color here. I might order the beige because they are the perfect length and can be dressed up or down! I absolutely love the frayed hem of these shorts and they’re so comfortable. I swear, it’s like going out in pajamas! That’s a win-win in my book. I sized up to a medium in both the shorts and the top. I’ve actually worn this top way too many times already and I’m not even ashamed. It looks so cute with high-waisted jeans and a utility jacket. But I love the way it looks with some striped summer shorts, too. Speaking of summer… NYC has decided to be cold, again. I’m not used to this kind of weather! But I’ll take the cold over the heat any day. I am not good with hot weather! Everyone thinks I’m crazy because I would rather be freezing than dying of heat.

Haha, last but not least, I paired this look with my favorite mules and neutral cross body. This is just one of those looks I know that I’m going to get so much use out of over the next few months! As soon as I tan my legs, I’m sure I’ll be wearing shorts more often. 🙂

Now, for a personal update… 

Holy moly — it feels like years since I last posted on The Fashionista’s Diary. While I really needed this time to recover and regroup, I really did miss writing on here. TFD has always been an outlet that I used to inspire you guys, whether that be through outfits or personal stories. But, moving to NYC has been a very tough transition and I haven’t adjusted as well as I could have.

First, I had to deal with a very hostile living environment. When you go from living with your parents to living with someone who gives you extreme anxiety, it’s not fun. Especially when your home is supposed to be your haven. My apartment became a dark place that I never wanted to retreat to. I never wanted to go home and I most certainly didn’t want to live there anymore. But, just like everything in life, I tried to deal with it and make the best out of my living situation until end of December of this year. Well, clearly I was unable to do that. From awkward silence to fights and constantly feeling like I was being belittled, I decided it was time for me to move out. This meant finding someone to sublet my room, making a legal agreement, making sure everything was set on both ends, finding a new apartment, saving the money to pay for that new apartment, buying furniture and more. Let’s just say I’ve been a bit extremely mentally exhausted. Luckily, I am now living on my own and finally feel happy in my own home. But those four months were really, really rough.

Second, finding a good job hasn’t been as easy as I really hoped it would be. There are many things that I’ve gone through in my current job that I can’t really go into detail about, but I am unfortunately having to find a new job… again. I’m drained, guys. Both mentally and physically. I thought this was going to be an easy transition and it’s been everything but that. And in the process I have felt myself seriously losing faith in myself as well as God. I’ve become discouraged when it comes to blogging, I’ve felt defeated and, more than anything, I’ve felt really sad. I know that I can’t always control what happens in life, but I’m hoping that you’ll still stick around, especially now that I’m back. I really want to start incorporating more lifestyle into TFD and connecting with you on a whole new level. I may not be a perfect 23 year-old, but I think that showing you these candid sides of my life just prove to you that nothing is ever as it seems and sometimes people are struggling even when you can’t tell.

I wish I could have moved to NYC, had a perfect roommate, found the perfect job and been all set. But that wasn’t the case. And, you know what? That’s okay. Because while I may have temporarily lost my passion for blogging due to everything going on in my life, I’m determined to remind myself every single day why I started this little site in the first place — to inspire you.

I’ve felt so guilty for abandoning my blog, you have no idea. But I needed this time to find myself and to find out how I could be the best version of myself again. I’m not quite there yet, but I’m back here on TFD. And oh how I’ve missed you! I can’t wait to share new posts with you including fun content that I already have planned out. And I’ll be going to Vermont this weekend so I’ll shoot some fun looks there, too!

Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for always being so patient with me. It hasn’t been an easy road, but I’m stronger because of it. I’m so thankful to my parents for being the rocks in my life and for holding my hand throughout this tiring process.

Here’s to being back! Happy Monday!

“Survival can be summed up in three words — never give up. That’s the heart of it really. Just keep trying.” Bear Grylls 

Lauren Ashley
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Comments

  1. Kristina

    Hang in there girl!! Hate that you’re going through all this but hopefully you’ll find something perfect soon!

    xo, Kristina

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  2. Nicole Green

    You are so strong to realize the changes you needed to make and go after them! I wish I had been that self-aware in my early 20s. I’m loving these mules and the cute hem on your shorts. xoxo, Nicole

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  3. Stephanie

    i’m really happy you’re back to blogging but it breaks my heart that you’ve been going through so much. i’m so sorry that your move became such a challenge. i really hope the next few months only get easier for you and you find your joy and faith again! sending much love!

    stephanie // shesawstyle.com

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  4. Odalys

    Listen, moving to New York and hitting the real world is always tough. As a Miami girl NYC is especially hard because Miami is such an easy city to live in. I left Miami for college so I had the experience of roommates thankfully not NYC but in the South where people are nicer so by the time I got to NYC I was at least prepared for that- you left your parents house! That’s a big adjustment! There’s a reason why abuelitas typically didn’t approve of girls moving out on their own- not because they can’t but because it’s terrible!

    Just remember it’s all about perspective. God doesn’t promise that bad things won’t happen (look what He let happen to His only son 😳) but He does promise to be there with you every step and he promises to make beauty out of ashes. Take your failures and don’t look at them as the end of the story but more of a pivot point. If something doesn’t work- that’s good! You now know you don’t need to invest your time unwisely. Figure out what you could have changed for it to go better next time. Then the next time will for sure be better or at least get you to the next step, then to the next …etc till you get to where you’re going. That mental strength is tough shit. I couldn’t do it without God. I tried, but I couldn’t muster up the strength when things got dark in my life. It wasn’t until I kept just believing (even when logic was like this is not sensical!!!) that He was taking me somewhere that I was able to get to this really blissful season of my life. Keep swimming Lauren!

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    1. Lauren Ashley Post author

      Thank you so so much for your kind words. It was a HUGE adjustment and as much as I felt I was prepared, I definitely wasn’t. I know that God has big plans for me so I’m waiting patiently for them! xx

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  5. Kelsey

    Stay strong girlfriend- you’re got this! I can definitely relate! I had the worst roommate situation is school that made me never want to go home either!! And I am also trying to find a new career.. It’s not fun, but we can do it!!

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  6. Anna English

    Patience and perseverance are two attributes that are hard to master, but it sounds like you’re well on your way! Everything will work out in the end!

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  7. Sylvianna Lucero

    You are a strong #girlboss i have faith in your continuing transition. I myself left California and ended up in North Jersey. NYC is the most amazing place but also super intimidating,. Keep doing you & I hope all works out. BTW love the shorts going to order now!

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    1. Lauren Ashley Post author

      You are so sweet – thank you so much. It is intimidating but it’s an amazing city! SO much opportunity! And yay! You will love them so much! xx

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  8. Hillary

    I hate for this to sound like I’ve been there and it gets better, but I HAVE been almost exactly there and IT DOES get better! Long story short, my first three years out of college I went through 3 different jobs, I took in a “friend” when she was in need only to find out she was not paying her half of the rent for almost 3 months and then spent 8 months unemployed living in Chicago. I thought the exact same thing as you, I had a plan and then God laughed. I am happy to tell you though that I’ve been in my current job (the one I got after being unemployed) for almost 8 years now. Are things in other parts of my life perfect, not in the least. But as the old cliche goes, “what doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger.” And I think that there are A LOT of people, including myself and now you, that can attest to that. Hang in there, girl – it WILL get better. I’m glad you came back to your passion, though!

    ~Hillary
    http://www.styleinasmalltown.com

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    1. Lauren Ashley Post author

      I know how you feel when you say things like that but I definitely believe you – things WILL get better! Love reading about your story and seeing how things got better for you. You’ve given me some serious hope, girl. And I’m SO happy to hear that you’re happy at your job now! You deserve it! xx

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  9. Sela

    Hang in there! I’m hoping that the worst is behind you and that you find a wonderful job soon!

    I totally feel you regarding the heat…I was in Florida for a week and the heat was killer!

    Excited to read up on your upcoming posts!

    Sela // itoldyousoblog.com

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    1. Lauren Ashley Post author

      I hope so, too! I think good things are coming… hopefully! Fingers crossed! And thanks so much – I’m excited to be coming up with new content! Also, I know – the heat is KILLER. Ugh! xx

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  10. Nataliya

    I completely understand what you are going through except I moved from New York to Miami. Changing my third position because it just doesent work. Few years back when I had a roommate, it was a miserable experience and I didn’t want to come home as well.
    I am sorry it’s tough… holding my fingers for both of us that it will get better. Hang in there! 🤗🤗

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