Goodbye, Miami

It’s difficult to find the right words to say goodbye to a place that has been home all of my life. Miami harbors so many memories. From making friends to losing them, having my first boyfriend, getting my heart broken, creating The Fashionista’s Diary, becoming an aunt, and more… all while trying to grow up and become who I am today. If you would have asked me in high school if I ever thought I would leave Miami, I would have laughed and said no. Today, if you ask me if I were to ever move back to Miami, I would laugh and say no. Truth is, Miami hasn’t felt like home to me for a while now. Somewhere in between high school and the end of my college career, I found myself. I’ve been told that in order to find yourself you first need to get lost. College was really tough for me. While many people describe it as the best four years of their life, it was everything but that for me. I lost myself several many times. My life begins today.

It’s a bittersweet day today. As I say goodbye to my room, my dogs and my family, I know that I’m just a plane ride away from really beginning to live. I’ve never been more ready for something in my entire life. I know at times it will be terrifying. Sometimes I’ll miss coming home to my parents being loud, watching Fox News and nagging me. I’ll miss Iggy waking me up in the morning by jumping on my bed and licking my face. But then there will be days that I will be so happy to come back to a quiet apartment that I can call my home.

Imagine a hermit crab. She’s living in a shell that is considered comfortable enough for her to survive. She doesn’t want to go out and find a new shell because there’s risk in it and she doesn’t know if she’ll be strong enough or find the right shell. She waits in her shell, her comfort zone, until she finally decides she deserves a better shell and is going to take the risk and find it. She finds it and it’s bigger and she can move so much faster and more comfortably. In this case, I’m that hermit crab. I’ve been stuck in my comfort zone for so long that I forgot how invigorating it is to take risks in life.

Today I’m finally free of the bad memories that have been weighing me down. I think that’s what I’m most excited about. It’s hard to forget about difficult experiences when you’re reminded of them on a daily basis. I get to officially let go.

So, goodbye Miami. Thank you for the great times and even the bad times, because they taught me life lessons I will carry with me forever.

Lauren Ashley
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  1. Mom

    Today is the beginning of a new journey for you my dear Lauren. I will miss you dearly. but I also need to let you go so you can be happy. You will always have a loving home to come back to, never forget. May God continue to bless you and always guide you in the right path. Love you all the way to God Mom 🙂

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  2. Mary-Katherine

    So excited for your new adventure, love! You’re going to do great things! And the best part about leaving home is that now you get to create your own “home”.

    xo MK

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  3. Ashley

    I am SO excited for you and your new adventure! Life is waiting for you babe, and you are going to thrive in NYC. So proud of you for stepping out of your comfort zone and moving on to bigger things. I can’t wait to see what is in store for you!!!

    Love you!!!

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  4. Ruthie Ridley

    I don’t know why but this made me cry. I can relate to you in so many ways. I left CT 3 years ago… left my parents and everything I knew to be home after spending 24 years of my life there. It was a leap of faith and probably the best decision we have ever made. I want to congratulate you on your bravery. I can’t wait to follow along on your new adventure! You can do anything! XO

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    1. Lauren Ashley Post author

      Aw! I used to live in CT, too. It’s definitely hard. I’m terrified out of my mind and I cried leaving my dos today but I know how worth it it’ll be and that I’m going to grow so much as a person. Thank you so much for your sweet comment!

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  5. Shevonne

    Lauren, your post almost made me cry! I am so happy for you, for taking a leap of faith. I hope you get to create some of your most best memories yet. I have no doubt that you will do great things. The best is still yet to come. When times get tough, remember that God is always with you and he will never leave nor forsake you.

    Good luck with everything!

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    1. Lauren Ashley Post author

      You are so sweet! Thank you for taking the time to comment! It’s definitely terrifying but it’s going to be worth it – I know it! I believe the best is yet to come… definitely.

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  6. Jordyn

    I’m excited you are beginning a new journey! I think you are right we all have to lose ourselves a few times in order to find ourselves. Good luck with your new adventures wherever they take you! (:

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  7. Madrinita

    Little lady congrats to you, I am very excited for you new journey and one that will be what you have yearned for-for a very long time. I am excited that you are able to expand and share with all of us these moments, and continue to do so from NYC.
    You know I’m coming, so NYC better prepare itself for our get together….one speakeasy at a time!

    Besitos,
    Madrinita y Henrysito.

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    1. Lauren Ashley Post author

      I LOVE YOU AND JUST DIED! Henrysito vino para NY tambien. We are ready to party if you know what I mean. And YES! Us ladies are going to take over when you get here! Can’t wait!!!!!

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  8. Marisol Prieto

    I can’t express into words how proud I am of you, and of being your favorite cousin in the world. Today is the beginning of a new chapter in your life the will be filled with many new experiences that you will treasure. I will miss you terribly, but I’m very exciting for you. May God bless you always and guide you in the right direction. Love you always Marisol ❤️?

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    1. Lauren Ashley Post author

      Thank you so much, Marisol! I miss you already but you will definitely have to come visit and we will have a blast! Love you favorite cousin in the world. <3

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  9. Carmen Perez

    You will do great in NYC! Very proud of you…to new beginnings! Love you Lauren, best of luck honey!
    xoxo,
    Carmen

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  10. Sara

    Love that you took charge and decided to start over all while taking on the adventure of moving. Cant wait to see where you end up!

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  11. Meghan

    Congratulations on making this leap!! Changes are good! I left a beach town and loved my college years there tremendously. However I would not have grown into the person I am today had I not moved back to the city where I belong. Good luck on your future endeavors girl!

    Meghan | beyondbasicblog.com

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